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AmberMaureenHolley

Hi. My name is Amber Maureen Holley I am looking for my daughter. Her adopted parents changed her name so I am not sure what they named her But her birth names is Jordan Sky Holley. My baby girl There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. Wonder if you are okay. If your adoptive parents are looking well after you. If you happy. Do you know about me and if you do, do you hate me. Are you looking for me. My beautiful little girl I know once you find out you are adopted you are going to be overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings. Probably mostly angry towards me and you will have so many questions. I want to start by saying I hope and pray you don’t think and feel like I just gave you away. Because that is not true at all. I was 14 years old when I had you my beautiful. And unfortunately back then I didn’t have a say. And because I was so young I wasn’t able to make decisions for myself. I fought so hard to keep you baby but your birth granny, my mother felt she was making the best decision for you and for me by giving you upfor adoption. A decision that she is still living hard with today. But I won’t carry on now and. Hopefully if you one day look for me we can continue that conversation. U know I Wonder how beautiful you are becoming and what type of person you are becoming. If you have inherited anything from me or your birth family. If you know you are adopted yet and if you ever think of me too. I know you must be angry. With me. And I hope and pray every single day that when you ready you will find me. And believe me my beautiful girl I am waiting in anticipation for you. Words can’t begin to describe how much I have missed you, how much I miss you. Every single day. Every minute of every day. I will never ever forget the day you were taken, ripped from my arms. I will never ever forget the high pitch screech you gave and hhow you cried. Oh baby that heartbreaking cry and screech is somethings that still haunts me. I can still hear it like it was happening all over again right now. That cry haunts me every single day. I will never forget I stood there frozen I couldn’t move. I tried to reach out to you and take you back but it was Iike I was frozen, I couldn’t move a single muscle in my body. I tried to shout give her back shes mine but nothing was coming out my mouth. I sstayed like that for a few moments and I heard the footsteps of the lady carrying you qfade down the hall with your crys. It become muffled then everything when dead silent. Then and There my body all of a sudden could move and I fell to my knees holding my heart and the tears just rolling down my check. The most beautiful, pure piece of my heart was ripped out of my chest the day they took you from me and there was nothing I could do about it or to stop it. I want you to know that that piece of my heart is still missing and always will be until I find you. I love you so much Jordan Sky Holley always have and always will. Please contact me if you want too. I’ll be waiting like I always have and I will be waiting For the rest of my life I will be waiting for you. Your mommy Amber Maureen Holley