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Palanukd

I dont know why after 35 years im actually on here looking to see if anyones out there looking for me...why would she be? She gave me away! But if you were a young mother going through a program at liberty university and gave birth to a boy on or aroung february 9th 1988 in bedford virginia‚ i recently reached out by email to that university programs administration and asked that if by any chance you ever did try to contact them to try to find me‚ that they please let you know that i forgive you. It hurts so much going through this life feeling alone‚ always knowing i came into this world by myself and leaving this world by myself...never knowing what the other kids felt when they hugged their mom and dad‚ because it never felt that way for me‚ never understanding the bond of family that my wife shares with her dad and siblings. Its really sucked at times‚ and i used to blame you for my pain‚ and often wished you would have made the alternative choice so i would have never had to live through some of those times. But as hard as it is to do‚ i forgive you‚ mom. And i know youll probably never bother to look for me‚ but ive done what i can to put it out there for you to know how i feel if you do care‚ my heart is at peace. I made it. Had some setbacks but i married a beautiful precious woman‚ and now its looking like we might have to adopt ourselves after about 8 years of trying to conceive with several heartbreaking miscarriages and lots of specialists and procedures along the way. So if this concludes on an even more depressing note‚ im not going to have the same opportunity that you were blessed with‚ being able to give birth and let your lineage live on...its not poetic justice‚ nor done intentionally‚ i guess i was intended to never in my life get a chance to meet even a single blood relative. Im literally the only person ill ever know from my bloodline. Totally alone from day 1 until the good Lord takes me home. Anyways. Hope youre well and in good health.