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CHANGEDBIRTHMOM

I was not in a good place in life so when DCFS took you I decided it was best if u stayed with Jeff and Jen. It was not an easy choice to make and I kept asking Jeff and Jenn and our DCFS worker to promise that U would stay with Jeff and Jen. That they would be the ones to adopt you. I didn't want u to be moved and have to adjust to new parents again. Not a single day goes by that I do not think of you and cry cuz of everything I missed out on in your life. I was told it would be a n open adoption and that I would get pics and updates. I was told u would be told everyday how much it hurt me to let them keep you. But I did what I felt was best for you. They said you would always know about me and when u was old enough to decide I could c you and be in your life if that was what you wanted. . But nothing I was told would happen actually happened. I don't blame anyone nor am I angry. It just hurt more every birthday of urs that went by and I didn't get pics or updates or anything. I even wrote Ur mom (Jen) a few times thru Facebook and never got a reply instead I was blocked. I made bad choices in my life I will admit that. I am asking you for a chance to show you I have changed and a chance to be a part of ur life in any way that ur comfortable with. I love you your birth mother