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PEGBUNDY29

I am looking for my niece Amanda. She is the daughter of my sister Diana Ricklefs who is from Iowa. I was only around 10 when my mother moved myself and two of my sisters to Oklahoma. A short time later Diane joined us and she was pregnant with her 3rd child, a beautiful little girl she named Amanda. I took Amanda almost everywhere I went and would play with her and play house and pretend she was my baby. She loved it and she was such a sweet little girl. When Amanda was around 8 months old my mom decided to move me and my sisters back to Iowa but Diane decided to stay in Oklahoma with a man she had met. While we where back in Iowa we received a call and were told that Kurt Hassler (Diane’s boyfriend) had hurt Amanda really bad. My mom went back to Oklahoma but because I was in school I was not allowed to go no matter how hard I cried. I missed Amanda very much and wanted to go be with her but sadly I was never able to see her again. I was never told all the details and the things I was told may or may not be true. I blamed myself for a very long time and thought if I had stayed there or if I had snuck her and took her with me like I had wanted to I could have protected her. As I grew up I knew that I didn’t have the option to do either but I never got over being angry at never having a chance to see her again or tell her goodbye. I eventually had children of my own and I made sure I was a good mom and I owe a lot of that to a little girl that I mothered even though she wasn’t mine. I would give anything for the chance to tell her how much I miss her and how very much I loved her. I would like to tell her she has siblings (2 sisters and 1 brother), she also has cousins a lot of cousins. I would love for my 2 sons and my daughter (who shares a birthday with Amanda 12/02) to meet her. I still think about her all the time but I would understand if she never wanted to meet any of her biological family I just want to know that she is ok and that she was raised in a loving home and that she recovered from whatever was done to her. I would love to hear from her and would only tell who she wanted me to and when she wanted me to.