Active Search Profile Details

Yopjt

Dear Keith, I just want to start out and say that knowing your alive has been a great help to my mental health. I want to apologies in advance if you feel like my thoughts are all over the place. Not really sure how I can fit everything I want to tell you into one letter, so for now I’ll tell you that I’m your older brother, and It’s been hell trying to fight the world to get to you. This goes without saying that I love you very much. It’s funny how hard it was to type those three words because I never told anyone else that in my life, but that goes to show you how much I care about you and that you are the only thing I have in this life. Sounds very depressing typing that, but it’s the truth. I want to make it clear to you that I never abandoned you. You were taken away from me, and I will destroy any barrier that gets in my way from preventing me from seeing you. I also can understand and won’t blame you if you don’t want nothing to deal with me because there has been too much time apart and that there is no reason to keep a bond that will bring up bad memories of being lonely. I hope you don’t have any of those feelings of being lonely but if you do I want you to know that your important to me and that the only happiness I can find at the moment is knowing your happy, now don’t get me wrong I am not suicidal or anything and I am doing quite well for myself in the IT field, although I feel that I can do three times better if I set my mind to it. I only have a few memories of you when you were a baby and how you use to cry a lot when we were put in the same foster home. I use grab your hand gently as kid to make you stop crying, which actually worked!! Lol. Then after a few months they separated me into another home while you still remained there for a while, and eventually we met again when I was in the 3rd or 4th grade. We saw each other at chucky cheeses and we briefly hanged out. The time was probably cut real short due to the fact that my other foster sibling lost you while I was on another game *cough*, and then your adopted parents were worried sick and called it a day. I guess the only good bye present I got from all of that was a picture of you in a laundry basket with cloths piled onto you. It’s funny how I remember the small things like your adopted dad was an air pilot, but I couldn’t remember any of their names, which would led to our reunion a lot faster. As I am writing to you this letter I am planning on moving very far from the location that I am at. After going through a lot of things I just want to be left alone and become a hermit. Not saying I don’t want you reaching out to me. Only way I know how to deal with this inner turmoil of everything around me being ripped away from me. If you were ever looking for me privately then you probably have next to no luck because I have no social media and there is no photos of me on the internet besides my ID. I am very strict on what I post on the web. If you’re wondering what type of guy I am then I can tell you that I don’t smoke and only drink when I am with very close friends at social gatherings. I am a little bit of a game junky and into some nerdy things like anime and etc, but I do love to explore and travel a lot now a days, and do random things like paintballing and white water rafting. I watch a few UFC fights and boxing from time to time but I am not really a sports fan. I don’t want to bore you from reading all of this but I will say that I know you’re a smart guy and if you’re not I will still tell you that because I won’t let a brother of mine think that he isn’t capable of doing anything that’s out of his reach. Well this is all I have to say for now and sorry for my inconsistency on my punctuations. I don’t want you to feel obligated to contact me, and if you request a picture of me I will deny it because I am camera shy. Just heads up. Yours truly Justin(changing my last name)