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TRU100

Born in Topeka KS. Daughter of Michelle belair and Mauricio Perez-Hernandez. I have 4 brothers. We were all adopted. Those people who adopted us ruined my brothers and i. I left as soon as I could (adopted household) it hurt me more to leave my siblings behind but if i had stayed any longer I believe I wouldnt be here today. As I have in the past attempted to take my own life on a few occasions while living under their care. I recently found out that one of my siblings felt the need to take his own life as well. It kills me to know he felt that he needed to do the same as I once did...though when i talked to him his eyes told me the truth. I asked him why?? He couldnt even look at me he wanted to break down and cry and tell me what was happening but couldn’t out of the fear of him (adopted guardian) cutting us off from speaking to each other..(is what i assume/what I took from his reaction to some of my questions) I wanted to know why he did it when deep down I knew why he did what he did. Those people who adopted my siblings and I didnt really care about us, seemed to me they picked who they really "cared" for and it was known. You could tell by how they talked to/treated us kids differently. They are and will never be fit to be parents/guardians in my eyes. They traumatized me and my brothers. They put terrible things in our heads that were false. They stopped taking me to this therapist that really helped me work on ptsd and emdr...she helped me remember things from my childhood that I had "forgotten" about but in actuality my mind put a blocker so i wouldnt remember the event is how my therapist explained it..adopted people said my therapist was putting things in my head and they didnt appreciate it and stopped taking me. Im still suffering and I can’t imagine how/what my siblings are going through.